A week has flown by and Michael and I have only read up to day 3 in our devotional. It seems that setting aside time to spend together in prayer and devotion to God is more challenging than I would have thought. Having not been diligent over the years in setting aside time to spend with God each day as a couple this is not second hand to us, but I am sure with time and persistence, eventually it will be.
This week I prayed that God would teach me what love is and to make me a more loving person. I don't feel like any great change has occurred inside but know that God is faithful to hear our prayers and will answer them in His time and as He sees fit. I find that love is a choice and one that we choose each day, moment by moment in what ever circumstances I may find myself in.
Thankfully those circumstances this week are not huge but even overcoming something as simple as choosing to submit to something my husband has asked of me because I chose to show him love instead of becoming frustrated or angry can be a challenge. And even now as I write I cannot even remember what it was he had asked of me that made that a challenge. I just know that there was a time this week when Michael asked me to do something and I looked at him wanting to say "Why don't you do it yourself?" and instead of giving into that feeling and line of thought chose instead to say "Sure, I can do that." and let go of what ever it was rising up in me that would have done nothing but create a rift in us at that moment. Not only out of submissiveness to him but to God and God's order, I was reminded that I show God's love to Michael through how I treat and respond to him and that when I honor God's order in our home then He will work that same love in my heart.
I have also in my personal time started to read "The Power of a Praying Wife" as well. There was a time when I prayed multiple times a day and felt that I was called to intercessory prayer. But over time I have allowed anger and unhealed hurts to cloud my heart, as that happened I prayed less and less each day. Now I feel as if I have to begin my walk all over again in some area's and prayer is one of them. I am reminding myself of the power prayer has and all the reasons that prayer is important in my life by beginning with praying for my husband, our marriage and personal walks with God. I know from experience that if my prayer life is in order, God will be able to meet me and use me more. This has also be a challenge this week for me to maintain.
If I am completely honest, which is the whole point of this blog, I admit that I have allowed the day to day responsibilities to come before time with God. This next week, I am setting a goal to have 30 min. a day of quiet time with the Lord. Whether that time is first thing in the morning, during Sarah's nap or in the evening before bed is not the issue. Just that I do it.
Until next time...
God BlessYou
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